my zen.

Boy & Bear - Blood To Gold

music is love. it's what we share.

i guess everybody makes mistakes. but how many is too many? hm.

on the road again

i feel like my life is really none of your business. but i will give you some insight anyway.

everyone is so special. its unbelievable. i really can't spell words with 'ie' in them

"And love is always complicated. But still humans must try to love each other, darling. WE must get our hearts broken sometimes. This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something."

-Eat, Pray, Love

so hard to find that balance

I reckon you don't know anything till you've actually experienced it. you really have no right to any opinion if you haven't tried it, experienced it, or dealt with it. You are biased. So go on, don't be scared. Don't be shy...

so my latest theory on people...

people don't know what they want. they think they do for a brief second, but then they realize thats not it! They always want something unattainable. something unreasonable, irrational. People are crazy really. Including myself. Obviously.

If only we could just get it right the first time..

my mind is unsettling. unresolved. wondering. my stomach hurts. it's a craving. an addiction so powerful.

do watcha feel

alive

sometimes God answers a wish

People are so scared to love! Let's give love! For free!

"No objective observer of our WEstern life can doubt that love-- brotherly love, motherly love, and erotic love-- is a relatively rare phenomenon, and that its place is taken by a number of forms of pseudo-love which are in reality so many forms of the disintegration of love. Modern capitalism needs men who cooperate smoothly and in large numbers; who want to consume more and more; and whose tastes are standardized and can be easily influenced and anticipated. It needs men who feel free and independent, not subject to any authority or principle or conscience-- yet willing to be commanded, to do what is expected of them, to fit into the social machine without friction; who can be guided without force, led without leaders, prompted without aim-- except the one to make good, to be on the move, to function, to go ahead.

What is the outcome? Modern man is alienated from himself, from his fellow men, and from nature. He has been transformed into a commodity, experiences his life forces as an investment which must bring him the maximum profit obtainable under existing market conditions. Human relations are essentially those of alienated automatons, each basing his security on staying close to the herd, and not being different in thought, feeling or action. While everybody tries to be as close as possible to the rest, everybody remains utterly alone, pervaded by the deep sense of insecurity, anxiety, and guilt which always results when human separateness cannot be overcome. Our civilization offers many palliatives which help people to be consciously unaware of this aloneness: first of all the strict routine of bureaucratized, mechanical work, which helps people to remain unaware of their most fundamental human desires, of the longing for transcendence and unity. Insamuch as the routine alone does not succeed in this, man overcomes his unconscious despair by the routine of amusement, the passive consumption of sounds and sights offered by the amusement industry; furthermore by the satisfaction of buying ever new things, and soon exchanging them for others. "

Powerful Passage from The Art of Loving, by Erich Fromm

can i just take a picture of you to keep you forever

Calvin Harris - Flashback

this song makes me happy

Brandon Flowers - Crossfire

life is screaming with happiness. It feels so good to love, to dance, to feel, to celebrate, to laugh, to eat, to escape. I have had some of the best weeks here in Australia these past two weeks. My friend Alex came and visited, and we hung out with everyone and went to Katchafire, went to the Eastern on Wednesday. Katchafire was amazing. This week, on Wednesday after I got through my 2500 word essay and debate, went to double happy hour at Uni Bar. Met everyone there, then we went to an amazing local Thai restaurant near by for Blaise's Birthday. He payed for 10 bottles of wine for all of us and the bill! Then Thursday I went and saw Hubble 3D Imax :) The movie was amazing but was only 40 minutes! So me and Simon went to the James Squire Microbrewery, had heaps of beer and I had a wonderful Kangaroo dish. Very nice restaurant. Then we rented The Matrix, got some chocolate cake, a bottle of white, and went back. School the next day, then out to the city again. Simon and I went to East Bank right on the harbour. Then we had a dance party at his place. and it felt so good to just dance with the music blasting! This morning, he let me drive his car and we went to breakfast at Bronte Beach. Lovely week :) I am so thankful for my family and friends. It is such a wonderful place. AUSTRALIA.